What is 3 years?

What is 3 years to you? 1095 days? 26280 hours? Nothing? I don't know how you would think.

But to me? It's 63 days. (I shall not give credit to my brother for saying this)

Another year has ended, and so has another theolo. I definitely miss the noise and fun, but I must admit, it hasn't affected me as much as last year's.

Yes its still the same, waking up at 5 plus just to shower, then spending luchtime to slack or to mug, fishing for guppies and sometimes whales, praying and sometimes failing to concentrate. Haha I even had fellow fishermen with me in the front row :D Then somewhere in between, I got hooked to instant cereal and ate them by the packets (without water) as well as mayo on toast. (Theolo has awesome food combis trust me) Im glad I still lost weight, or perhaps muscle. I don't know. But Im happy that I need a belt now XD

I made new friends, got to meet old ones, met a nice and very funny preacher and had fun torturing the overseas people with durians =) Missed a birthday and celebrated mine with the first test in theolo along with fasting over 2 meals (awesome bday present eh?)

But I feel as if it was not as fulfilling as it once was. Why?

Perhaps its because I have had such a horrible faith this whole year, that most of my theolo was spent on complaining and crying out for something that is already there. Or just perhaps I havent been able to move out of Babylon. Sigh, what happened?

"It took the Israelites a day to move out of Egypt, but it took 40 years and more to move Egypt out of them"

Lord help me to continue in my prayer, and help me to stand on the breaches in my life. Teach me to love more, and help me to believe. I shall continue to seek God and trust Him. For those that wait upon the LORD will have their hearts strengthened.

For all I can actually do is to trust Him and be strong.

And then after lessons in theolo officially ended, we went on an outing, first to Vivo then to Henderson Waves. I daresay that I did enough walking to last me for a long while. Seriously, going to some huge mall with no aim can REALLY kill your legs. Then we found a ship called the Doulos (or whatever its spelled as) and Debby bought me a book. Had to get slick help to pay her back lol. Did jumpshots on the bridge and risked falling off the bridge lol.

Then we went back to church, played round-the-world table tennis and died, then woke the next morning to send the overseas peeps off. And yes we went to all 4 of the terminals in one day. I wanted to die. My legs were dying!

Sigh will miss all that are going off or have already gone. Lets keep in touch all!

(I know this post inst like the other ones that a thinking and whatnot, but everyone should have a boring post once in a while.) Now lets have some resolutions!

Resolutions:
Make Jennifer drink Milo + egg
Pray better
Stop eating so much >(
Mug more
Write to others
Grow up
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Lemme decide the rest later ok? Its like 1 am and my bro is chasing me out of his room now so yeah. Ok then. uh. yeah. ok... yeah.

Another one

Well, its now the long awaited Dec hols. I remember that I always looked forward to this 2 month long holiday every year when I was younger. Free to wake at any time, free to do whatever I want, supposedly free from school. Yet the irony is that I have been going back to school almost everyday for the past 2 weeks of the hols. Why?

Week 1: Have to go back for extra lessons to continue with the syllabus. And CCA. Turned out we are all dragged into some stupid project called the GreenLab project where we are supposed to create animations about the new comp lab in school called the Greenlab where everything is eco-friendly and well green. Almost literally. The carpet has what, 3 shades of green? One corner has a green bamboo wallpaper. Correction. Covered with a BRIGHT GREEN wallpaper. They are really taking this "green" issues really seriously. Really.

Week 2: Somehow my group is doing an introductory/ overview animation of the greenlab. And somehow we decided that "hey! lets submit our animation for a separate competition!" And the end result? A whole week in school again, plus some more on the way! Not that the project/competition/I-don't-know-what is horrid, but its really draining me. During a holiday when I'm supposed to be well rested. Oh the irony.

Then as I read through my past posts on this blog, it notice that during 08, I seemed to be quite a happy and lively person. Then what happened in 09? Gloom, dread, fear, random poems that no one can decipher. Perhaps I've become a bit more... I don't know, sad and emo? I seem to have been facing a lot of problems this year. My mother tells me that its because I think too much and have a too high expectations. Well she is right. I have been thinking A LOT this year. (Perhaps my brain is expanding :o) But I cannot deny the fact that I have changed quite a bit this year, apart from being just a slight bit more hardworking (trust me, procrastination never leaves you) getting great results (thank God for that, if He didnt help i would not be able to understand those concepts easily!)

I am growing up, but in a sort of unorthodox way perhaps?

Some people wish that life was a bed of roses... they are blind. Why do they fail to realise that underneath that bed of roses lies a sea of thorns?

Life is like a vacuum. It sucks. But when one is able to see the great works and love of God, all will be well. I wish to be able to see them soon.

Phew.

Phew. After several weeks of getting stressed, not eating well, cursing my head off, procrastinating, wanting to murder people and then getting angry because I can't, the Final Year Exams are finally over. And yet, I feel a little sad. This means I'm one step closer to becoming a Sec 4, something I am sort of dreading. Also I (sadly and sorta weirdly) have become accustomed to always having something to do (say, a mountain of homework) everyday. Suddenly being thrown into a free period of time sorta unsettles me. Mainly because I sorta have forgotten how to wake up late on weekdays like today when I have no school. =P

Have I really become some workaholic that curses in the midst of the flood of work and then finds a time of peace super creepy? Perhaps. How stupid. Haha.

Well I am for one a little scared of the fact that I am almost finishing Sec 3 so quickly, especially when at the start of the year, I felt that this year was going to be very long. So much for long, now here I am out of the war with FYE, bored and tired. But the main reason why I'm scared? Cos of what's going to happen next year. O levels man.

During the last few weeks, I witnessed what the Sec 4's crazy preparations for their Os. It was mock after mock after mock and work after work after work. Study and cram like siao before prelims. Then mass lessons everyday, while going through prelim papers. Then after the Sec 4 farewell assembly (which I had absolutely no idea why we Sec 3's had to attend) they would just be cooped up at home studying, coming back for consultations and MORE mock papers and homework. At least that's how I see it from my perspective. Given how tired I am from studying, and just how annoyed I am for having to study I'm not looking forward to becoming a Sec 4.

And yes the start of 2010 will also mean even less drama for me.

But life must go on, and perhaps sooner or later I will be at the end of my Os and complaining how badly I did. Or something similar to that.

Grah I hope I don't get retained in Sec 3 though. Its far worse that becoming Sec 4.

I am also drifting very very far away from God. So much so that I no longer feel that He is there, even though He does make His presence known by helping me through my papers. I better buck up and clean up this mess. Clear out my hypocritical behaviour and profane speech. Its an ugly thing man. I'm worried that I might have already done something terribly wrong.

Question for everyone: should I drop core geography? I really stink at it right now. Give me an opinion!

A prayer

Dear God,

I have sinned against you one too many times,
yet you still keep me alive
and keep me safe.
Please help me to understand how you love
because I do not understand.

Please forgive my sins Lord,
and help me to run when temptation lurks
Please hold my hand everyday and give me strength
just so I will not stumble.

For I know I have no self-control
and am weak.
Please have mercy on me
and teach me, your face, to seek.

Please help my from my stress,
and help me to feel at peace.
I am very stressed and angry, Lord
my stress is like a beast.

It is eating me up and builds fury
and it brings me close to sin.
so please dear God, free me!
So that I won't die within.

Help me to see and feel that you are there,
that you will always be,
and to know that you will not abandon me
to leave me and not care.

And help me to count the many blessings you give me
so that with each that I count my faith will grow.
And that I will learn to be thankful,
all the way.

Keep me on the right path,
help me not to stray,
for as a human I will err
so please lead the way.

I know that I'm stubborn
and will often forget.
But yet even when I am far away,
You do not forget.

Please help me not to lie
and to mean what i say
So that I will not be a hypocrite
For from this you'll turn away.

Lord, a great battle is coming up
and I have not prepared
Please give me the strength to listen to you
and help me to start preparing.

Amen

Of Guinea Pigs and Unfulfilled Wishes

Hush hush breakdown!

Swish swing shazzle bish bang boom.

Not in a particularly good mood for now even though today was rather enjoyable. Im procrastinating. NOOOOO. Im like pushing back all my work and studying even though I SPECIFICALLY told myself not to. Oh well. Self-control is not on my side today, nor will it ever be if I don't try.

Had Amaths lesson in the morning today. Apparently My Choy cut his hair even shorter, saying its more cooling and he can save shampoo and whatnot. Since I was feeling kinda rich, I paid Yap 2 bucks and dared her to say to him "Your hair looks good". (but the terms were only settled after much bargaining through the medium of passing notes in class) And yes she accepted it and went ahead with the task, thanking me for making her 2 bucks richer. hah. And after all the jokes were over, My Choy dumped us with more homework. RAR

Went to AMK Hub after changing my outfit (i wouldnt want to go out in school U.what if a teacher stalks me and catches me doing something st00p1d?). I arrived there like about 30 mins early and had to stone for a looong time with Jasper coz I had to wait for the others to come. We ate a very very quick lunch (we da-baoed macs) and then watched G-Force. (yknow the movie with the talking guinea pigs? Not too bad a movie, quite cute and funny) Unfortunately Jasper had to leave even before the movie started and then Sue Anne left after the movie, leaving me Amanda.C, Irvin and Wilson to wander around some more before I left for home.

Been surfing net ever since i reached home though I had originally planned to do some work. RAWR curse you lack of self control person! (which would be me)

Just

Just looking and waiting for a chance

just so you can notice me.

Just what is it that I am lacking?

That makes me transparent to you?

I tried to change my image.

No effect.

I spoke more.

I became loud mouthed.

I then spoke less (how ironic)

Even worse.

I appeared in front of you more,

but-

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Nuts to be you technology! (bashes computer)

REBOOTING....

I appeared in front of you more,

but I feel so dumb doing so.

Try to help, but get declined

I go to my other friends

but I still end up going near you.

Perhaps my little wish

will never become reality

But then again if I try hard

maybe I can strike a shot

wHOs Up fOr A gaMe of p00l PeEpz! (lol)

Nonetheless, my options I'll weigh

To go or to stay.

When I find the answer from my scales

Hopefully you're not in other vales.

I wish

Now everyone has wishes. Some wish for money, others wish for fame. Some wish they knew it all, some wished that they forgot.

Wishing. A kind of request one makes so that their almost untouchable desires can be fulfilled. It is what many refer to as the shortcut to all your dreams. Sadly wishing can only take place as a request and almost all the time, our wishes NEVER come true.

If you had just one single wish for yourself, just one that would definitely come true, what would you wish for?

Some goody two shoes would wish for world peace (like that will ever happen. look at N.Korea, they're still firing dumb missiles and making a tonna noise for whatever reasons. I hear that a war might just happen. Hooray for us, we're all gonna die.)

Perhaps you would wish that there was no such thing as pain and suffering in the world (Feh. Without pain and suffering would you ever appreciate the things around you? Humans would never learn how to treasure things or even learn until they lose it. Just like deforestation and all that other environmental issues, they'll only stop when we die. Just when will man learn)

Maybe you would wish that you have a ton of money (but when recession comes its will become pieces of paper)

Whatever the wish is, its quite hard to achieve it. But hey, who said you can't dream and fantasize?

Hmm I wish... that I can get... (NOT TELLING YOU WHAT I WANT)


Well moving on to current events, common test is finally over. To be superbly and insanely honest, I didn't really prepare for it and yeah i have kinda of a bad feeling about it. But now I have something else (a lot of things actually) to take my mind off CT. ELEARNING. YES ELEARNING. Or Home Based Learning if u want to make it sound nicer. Im stuck at home with work. Id rather go to school really. Theres quite some work, but last year was worse.

Sigh life's is soo boring

A mother's love

Prewetta was covered in sweat as she scurried around the kitchen, checking the fridge and cupboards making sure she had put all the essentials into the box. She glanced up at the clock. 11am. "I better hurry, or else Dan would miss his lunch." Then, after having made sure she had put all his favourites into the lunchbox, she rushes out of the door. Striding across the carpark with the lunch box in hand , she found her motorbike parked at its usual spot. Very quickly, she got on and sped off.

"Where on earth is she?" Dan cursed as his stomach growled again. His mother was late! And all his friends were nearly done eating!

"Hey Dan, you're not having lunch?" One of his classmates piped up. Dan gives her a brief smile before turning back to the gates, face contorted into a scowl. He had been expecting to hear the faint roar of his mother's motorbike for the past 15 minutes, but it never came. He swore loudly as yet another vehicle passed, apparently mistaking it for his mother for the umpteenth time.

Meanwhile, Prewetta was speedily approaching the familiar bend that meant she was not far from her destination. "I hope that Dan isn't too hungry right now." As she sped around the corner, worrying whether her son was getting stomach cramps, she did not see the black BMW that was practically lunging towards her. "Almost ther-" Impact. All she heard next was the screeching of tyres and the shattering of glass as she sailed through the air before landing on her shoulder with an almighty, sickening crunch; the lunchbox cluched tightly in her other arm all the while.

"I'm terribly sorry! I should have seen where I was going. I'm..." Who was talking to her? The shock from the crash had left her mind in a blank. She twitched her uninjured arm and felt a box. Dan's lunch! Just as the driver was about to check and see if she was awake, Prewetta shot up, nearly scaring the driver to death. "I'm fine!" Prewetta said, or at least she hoped she did, as she got up and limped to the school down the road. She heard the driver screaming about getting an ambulance and going to the hospital and that some miracle had just happened or something like that. That can wait, she needed to get to the school!

Dan was practically seething when he saw his mother finally walk through the gates. She gave a weak lopsided smile as she handed him his lunch gently. She expects him to eat after making him wait?! His friends were done long ago! His chest boiling, he slams the box out of his mother's outstretched arm. The lunchbox hit the ground with a deafening clatter, spilling rice, chicken and potatoes all over the tiled floors. "WHERE WERE YOU? NO POINT IN EATING NOW, MY FRIENDS WERE DONE LONG AGO!" With that, he stormed off. He did not notice that his mother's right shoulder was twisted at an odd angle, or that her pants were torn slightly or that her ankle was starting to swell. Nor did he see the hurt look that crossed his mother's eyes when he sent his meal flying. She had ruined his day, now he had to go to class, hungry.

Prewetta felt tears welling up in her eyes. She did not know why she was crying nor why she felt so hurt, it was just a lunchbox! No. She had ruined her son's day, and she had been rejected by him. Silently sobbing, she knelt to clean up the mess, ignoring the searing pain from her shoulder, and the odd constricting sensation she felt in her chest. As she limped painfully home, a small voice at the back of her head worried whether he would be able to endure his lessons on an empty stomach. Colourful spots began to cloud her vision, her chest began to constrict even more and throbbed, her breathing came out in short raspy breaths and a moment later, all went black...

It was only hours later when Dan saw the look of devastation on his father's face as he arrived home, did he realise that something had gone wrong. Terribly wrong.

"I just got a call from the ICU..."

My story 2

Nothing's changed.
I'm still in a world of chaos and puzzles.
Solved? You wish.

I look up at the sky and wonder,
how long have I been on this wild goose chase?
just when, oh when will I learn to let it go?
There are so many other things to look at, to think about, to care.
So why am I still stuck on you?

I know well that when year-end comes, it will all be over.
No more chances, no more tries, no more glances
no more laughs, no more banters.
Should I try to take every remaining chance I have?
But is it worth it, to waste my time.
Fine, I'll try.
But now this is what I see :

Sure we talk, but what good is there anymore?
We speak of nothing but business.
I've lost the essence of it all.
You as well.
I've done enough, I'm through, or so I think
My determination lunges forth at the first chance, ready to strike.
But deep down I know, its not worth it, I shouldn't care.
These times, they'll fly away sooner or later. They won't last.
I still see you in the crowd, as always
I'm still standing afar, watching, waiting,
and silently cursing my stupidity.
Yet shamelessly clinging to a foolish hope, that perhaps, just perhaps
we can experience old times again.

Am I just trying too hard?
Maybe.
Grow up! Let go!
I beg myself please,
Or I'll never have my mind at ease.
Have I crossed the line? Just to impress?
Definitely. So now what?
I don't know. But I will retrace my steps,
repent and start over, if I can...

Now I'm at home and I wonder again,
my own kind is in danger.
No time to worry for this
So I'll put this down and see to the rest.
And whether I come back the same or not,
Well,
We'll see.

A wreckage of a reality check

Just came back from the Choir trip to Sabah and im already missing it like crazy. We had too much fun there (even though we mostly just ate and slept).

But then again, as I was thinking about the the trip's events and the aftermath, I came to realise something:

I'm not as old as I think.

I've completely forgotten just how young I really am. There are many things that I want to do but I just can't because of my age and many other factors related to my age. Psh, 15 aint a big number, it still starts with a number 1. I'm barely at the start of my life, and I'm already becoming a wreck.

And then another realisation (the one I personally HATE the most) hits me as I think about what happened during the trip:

I'm just a little kid trying to break a glass wall that cannot be broken.

All this time I've just been existing, just here in this blasted earth with absolutely no significance whatsoever. I'm just a kid who is trying so hard to grow up, to be different amongst a sea of people who outbest at everything possible. Looking at everyone, I finally see how distant I am from them.

Sure I have my own social circle, but there are times when I can't talk to them, coz I dunno what to say to them. I'm not one to walk up to you and say "Hey, nice weather eh?" Being caught between being a young teen and a young adult stinks. My social life is a wreck, my emotions are a wreck, my faith itself is also in danger. I'm doomed for sure.

The conclusion I draw? Life is meaningless, and the best you can do is to go out with a bang.

Yet there are people dumb enough to think that life is great. (not quoting Great Eastern here) To me, there's nothing to look forward to in life. Only the LORD can save me now. Don't ever tell me to live life to the fullest because there is nothing to live for. Seriously.

And I am also rather annoyed because of the one who constantly hounds around me, trying to break through even though I'm clearly uninterested.

Someone, free me from my torment.

Everyday they pass me by,
I can see it in their eyes.
Empty people filled with care,
Headed who knows where?

On they go through private pain,
Living fear to fear.
Laughter hides their silent cries,
Only Jesus hears.

People need the Lord, people need the Lord.
At the end of broken dreams, He's the open door.
People need the Lord, people need the Lord.
When will we realize, people need the Lord?

We are called to take His light
To a world where wrong seems right.
What could be too great a cost
For sharing Life with one who's lost?
Through His love our hearts can feel
All the grief they bear.
They must hear the Words of Life
Only we can share.

People need the Lord, people need the Lord
At the end of broken dreams, He's the open door.
People need the Lord, people need the Lord.
When will we realize that we must give our lives,
For peo-ple need the Lord.

People need the Lord.

My story

The bell rings. The class begins to end.
I check the time. 10am. I move off first.
Though my stomach growls, I know I move for a different reason.
The scene is crowded. People talk, shriek, laugh.
Its a sea of humans I don't know.
Last time, it ended in a good tone
The one before was average
I will make it different today.
I join the line and look around, no sign
my heart falls a bit, i sigh
a classmate shakes me awake, i respond. I look again. Still no.
then i see. A familiar figure. One that i can see even amongst this sea
My heart revives, i twist a smile
Im looked upon, and i turn, sure that my presence is noted
Then, a forceful slap to the shoulder. Jump Start!
Options display themselves, which to start with?
Remember, no boring today, a difference!
Those eyes gleam with excitement, and a hint of light insult
Well, two can play at that game!
I retort, it's received, a difference achieved.
News is relayed, I listen to the voice
A light tone to my ears, one that has left me in good moods for many a day
The fact that i am noticed, it makes me elated
At least I am not alone
Looking back, it all started with a simple self-introduction
Under a situation where both were under the same rules
the same game, and though they won the physical one
I took the first step of victory into the emotional one
but the bell rings again, i slip a mask on
a mask that betrays my feelings
for my heart sinks as goodbyes are exchanged.
But as i make my way back to class I give myself a little boost
I made today different
I will try again tomorrow

Teachers Are Awesome

Okay, this post is not for me to go gaga over teachers and praise them to literal high heavens, nor is it a defamatory post (i promise). This is a small (actually very small) collection of what a school teacher (YES A TEACHER) does that can really make your day (or just make you go huh?) even if you are buried under a mountain of homework. =D (ok maybe not)

(all these are real okay! they're from me and my bro!! ^^)

Now, I have 2 math teachers (Amaths and Emaths duh). They're really nice people and I am quite happy to have them as math teachers because they really bother to actually teach us. (my other teachers are the same of course) But, what they say to us can usually be quite *ahem* sometimes...

It was a really hot day and yeah most of us were sweating in class. (I feel so happy to be sitting under 2 fans =D)


Amaths Teacher : *fans himself*
" Why is it so hot?"
*looks at standing fan that is blowing at the students and turns it to himself* (and thus depriving Khuzzie, Eileen and Chelsea of much needed wind)

Jolene : "So not gentleman!!" (of course in a polite tone)

Amaths Teacher : *shocked expression*
" Gentleman to students? No way!"

Class : -_-?!

Then our emaths teacher....

Emaths Teacher : "GIRLS, NO NEED TO BE SHY! MAKE SURE YOU LABEL YOUR DIAGRAMS OKAY!" *very happy expression*(hes not scolding us here)

Class : @_@??

Lols.

Then my brother's teacher was teaching his class about how to make a good presentation. He was telling them about the "Hook, line and sinker" method. (of course hook meaning to get your audience interested) But it didn't come out quite as he/she had expected....

Teacher : Now class, hooking is a very important skill.
(hilarity and chaos ensues)

So much for trying to discourage sick thoughts eh?

Then during our school twice-a-week mass run while we had to stop jogging to let the cars pass before crossing the road.

Mr M. (thats what all the students call him and he actually uses it!) : Okay girls stop here, theres a car coming from over there, a truck over here and Mr Choy standing there *gestures to mr choy standing next to him*

Mr Choy : *gives the WHAT? expression* "what??"

LOL. I hope he doesnt run us over.

I also heard of some really funny things from my bro. His school motto (or vision or whatever its called) is "Experiment, Explore, Excel" but apparantly one of the students changed it to become this:


"Experiment, Explode, Expel" (i guess thats what happens if you react a grp 1 metal to an acid)

Though school life is still crazy and stressful and crazy BUT ITS ALSO FUN! I mean without school about half of the drama in your life is gone!

ALL THE BEST TO THOSE HAVING MID YEARS!!!

Recycling

Hey! I was bored and decided to recycle an old quiz. Yes its the 100 question thing. Im supposed to be doing homework but im really not in the mood to. So here it is!



.01. What have you been doing recently? Getting stressed

02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off? yes. most of the time actually

03. What happened at 10.00am today? was shopping at Jurong point with my family

04. When did you last cry? Guess

05. Believe in fate/destiny? Stuff happens. Period

06. What do you want in your life right now? A WAY OUT OF STRESS

07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood? i usually just RUN

08. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed? bolster.

9. What bottom are you wearing now? shorts. im at home.

10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say? Hi rachel how are you?

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated? well how would I know?

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone? no.

13. What was the last movie you caught? Cant remember

14. What are you proud of? Nothing really

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say? Hi Rachel how are you?

16. What was the last song you sang out loud? A chinese hymn

17.Do you have any nicknames? umm

18. What does your last received text message say? DARN ITS DUE TOMORROW

19. What time did you go to bed last night? dont remember

20. Are you currently happy? ABSOLUTELY NOT

21. Who gives you best advice?my mom

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can? Eh?

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?no one.

24. Is anything bugging you right now? MID YEAR EXAMS!!! and undone homework

25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh? Rachael Yap

26. Do you wear toe socks?nope.

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?dont rmb

28. Have you ever had your heart broken?many times.

29. What annoys you most in a person? lotsa stuff.

30. Do you have a crush on anyone? Now why would i tell you that?

31. Have you ever done cocaine? heck no.

32. What is the colour of your room? its still a light shade of green

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars? -.-

34. Do you believe in the saying of : talk is cheap? not really considering its so expensive to just
use the phone...

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed? myself duh

36. Who was the last person to hug you? my mother

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed? i haven't kissed anyone. -.-

38. Do you have a life? come to think of it...no

39. Have you ever thought someone died, when they really didnt die? no im not that much of sadist...

40. What is the reason behind your profile song? dont have one

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream? no one

42. Last time you smiled? just now

43. Have you changed this year? probably.

44. What are you listening right now? the fan spinning

45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this? yeah. jolene

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed? Are you human?

.47. Is there a quote you live by? "The Lord will bless those who put their trust in Him"

48. Do you want someone you cannot have? yes?

49. Have you ever played an instrument? yea. pianoooo.

50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week? Wanting to commit suicide?

51. What are you doing last night at 11pm?sleeping...

52. Are you happy with your love life right now? dont have one

53. What song best describe your love life? idk.

54. Does the person know that you like him/her? o.o no

55. Who always makes you laugh?my dog

56. Do you speak other language other than English? yea, chinese lah and a bit of hokkien

57. Favourite website(s)? youtube, blogger, wikipedia

58. What's your middle name? dont have one

59. What are you doing tomorrow? Chionging homework duh

60. What do you think you are like? a loser

61. Who will you choose to die with? my husband if i ever have one

62. Where have you been today?home and other places

63. What game do you play often? I dont play much games anymore

64. Who are you missing right now? no one

65. If you have to choose between friendship and love, who will you choose? uhh I'll answer you
when i actually come to that situation

66. What are you doing right now?this 100 question quiz thing

67. Which primary school are you from? Rulang Pri

68. Name 3 colours that you like?black, white and blue

69. What emotion do you like to show?happiness.

70. What is your life to you? A PIECE OF GARBAGE

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do? keep quiet and punch the walls

72. Who did you last chat in msn today? Jolene

73. Who do you admire most?God

74. Which month are you born in?December

75. How are you feeling right now? irritated

76. What is the time now?10 pm

77. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is? nobody did.

78.What colour did you use to dye hair?i never dyed my hair before.

79. Why are you doing this test?because im bored

80. What do you do when you're moody?not say a word.

81. At which age you wish to get married? 24 maybe? not too late.

82. Who is more important to you?family.

83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?talk to all them important people in my
life.

84. Who is the person you trust the most?my mom

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain? By the laws of physics, yes but i dont look for
one

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be? dunno

87. What is your goal for this year? STUDY HARD

88. Do you believe in eternity love? i guess

89. What feeling do you love most? being happy.

90. Do you really think its Global Warming now? yea i guess

91.What feeling do you hate the most?worried-ness.

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?the close ones, yea.

93. Do you believe in God? of course

94. Who cares for you most?God.

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?God, family

96. What will you bring when you fight? a sub machine gun. or a ton of grenades

97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?lotsa stuff ):

98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you? like dying.

99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you? idk, break?

100. HOW DO U FEEL NOW? stupid.

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Okay. This act of leaving my blog alone is seriously becoming a habit. But Ive gotten really busy...

Well heres what happened over the past month.

First of all, me, Cleo, Jinwei, Le-yi, Jasmine and Nadia joined this international website competition called ThinkQuest. Actually the competition started last year, but we joined in like at the start of the year. so we had like 4 months to complete it. Seems like a long time? Yeah right. well we slacked quite abit for like the first 3 months but 2 weeks before submission, we were rushing it like crazy. (well this scenario is not a stranger but it sertainly isnt very nice either) We spent the week before submission stayin back in school till we were kicked out, then proceeded to pull all nighters just to rush it. Well mainly Cleo and Jasmine stayed up. i could only manage till 11.30... and my flu got worse cos of it. But in the end we mangaed to churn out a rather nice piece of work though the site could be better. (all our interfaces were hand drawn okay!)

Then somewhere in between my common test came. They crammed like 3 stinking papers in a day and I would always be half asleep by the 2nd paper. Which would explain why i lost some marks in my bio paper ( i wasnt really thinking when i wrote the answers) but my results were cool (thank God) and so now im gonna prepare for mid years.

Great...

Ok I 've neglected the blog AGAIN. Aw man.

In any case , i've become rather busy lately (in case some of you havent noticed). Stress has moved in next door to become a neighbour. He has an EXTREMELY INFURIATING kid named Homework. Homework has a nutcase of a sibling called Tests and a pet goodness knows what animal named Studying. Worse, they come over to visit me EVERYDAY, saying that its courtesy to spend time with a neighbour. Yup, its a real "nice" family. So nice that it just makes you want burn them to the ground, look at the ashes and ask who planted that lovely patch of "rare white grass" there. *smiles innocently*

Sigh. And I can't move out. The landlord, School, demands that I stay in my current flat and pay my bills in academic results until I am old enough to get a job (Weird currency dude!). My 2 good friends Slack and Play, pity me and try to sneak me out from time to time. And I have a ton of fun....until I find out that my next pay-the-landlord session is coming up and I havent prepared for it yet. (oh no) Occassionally I get a few weeks of rest, but the neighbours visit AGAIN. Sigh....



Please note that I have no idea what the above paragraphs mean. Cheerios~ =D

Phail !!!!! (Fail)

Happy belated new year people. (yes yes my blog's gone stale and you'll probably start yakking at me like "are you dead?" or "new year's long behind you Rachel! Update yourself!") Whatever. This year's still new to me whether you like it or not. The previous post was a final attempt (albeit a desperate one >_<) to make sure my blog doesnt go TOO stale but i guess it didnt work...

Well lets see. What do i expect from this new year? Hmmm... Checklist time!
- Grow taller (done... by 1 cm)
- Meet new classmates and make some friends! (done)
- Mug more (ermmm...)
- Go crazy with seniors during CCA (done)
- Build up a better spiritual life (in progress but failing miserably)
- Resolve personal issues (...)
- Pick up a skill OTHER THAN talking garbage (*nervous laugh*)
- Go to Malacca (still waiting...)

Okayy, so i guess i dont really expect much from this year... other than the huge amounts of homework that can bury me and stress that will drive me nuts.... yeah i guess i'll survive (i hope)

In any case, I've taken a liking to this song!

Just Eat It (A parody of Michael Jackson's Beat it)

How come you're always such a fussy young man?
Don't want no Captain Crunch, don't want no Raisin Bran
Well, don't you know that other kids are starving in Japan
So eat it, just eat it (prrr)
Don't wanna argue, I don't wanna debate
Don't want to hear about what kind of food you hate ooh
You won't get no dessert 'till you clean off your plate
So eat it, don't you tell me you're full
Just eat it, eat it , eat it
Get yourself an egg and beat it
Have some more chicken, have some more pie
It doesn't matter , it's boiled or fried
Just eat it, eat it, eat it, eat iteat it, eat it, eat it, eat it, ooh
Your table manners are a cryin' shame
You're playin' with your food like it's some kind of game
Now, if you starve to death, you'll just have yourself to blame
So eat it, just eat it (prr)(burp)
You better listen, better do what you're told ooh
You haven't even touched your tuna casserole ooh
You better chow down or it's gonna get cold
So eat itI don't care if you're full
Just eat it, eat it, eat it, eat it
Open up your mouth and feed it
Have some more yogurt, have some more spam
It doesn't matter if it's fresh or canned
Just eat it, eat it, eat it, eat it
Don't you make me repeat it
Have a banana, have a whole bunch
It doesn't matter what you have for lunch
Just eat it, eat it, eat it, eat it
Eat it, eat it, eat it, eat it
Eat it, eat it, eat it, eat it
If it's gettin' cold, reheat it
Have a big dinner, have a light snack
If you don't like it you can't send it back
Just eat it, eat it, (woohoo) eat it, eat it
Get yourself an egg and beat it
Have some more chicken,(woohoo) have some more pie (woohoo)
It doesn't matter , it's boiled or fried
Just eat it, eat it, eat it, eat it
Don't you make me repeat it (oh no)
Have a banana,(woohoo) have a whole bunch
It doesn't matter what you had for lunch
Just eat it, eat it, eat it, eat it

Sigh.. no wonder people are over eating...

Man, its pretty fast, I'm already in Sec 3 and O levels are like what, next year? 1 year aint a long time, and i'm already beginning to feel the stress coming in. Also, some of the seniors that i have had fun together with during CCA or competitions are stepping down soon. Meaning the computer lab will have much less laughter and drama. Also, many ppl are going to army, meaning choir will soon be quiet and kinda puny in size. Sian.... oh well there are some things in life that you just cant change, and that you only learn to cherish the times you've had when they're gone or gonna be gone. Oh well like they always say... Diarrhoea and flu wait for no man!
Er wait... oops. Time and tide wait for no man. Once its gone, its gone.

Enough of emo talk. TIME FOR.... (drumroll please!) DUMB PHILOSOPHIES! (These are the funny ones)

. Always take the time to smell the roses...and sooner or later you'll inhale a bee.

. It's always darkest before dawn...so if you're gonna steal the neighbors newspaper, that's the time to do it.

. My father always said laughter is the best medicine, which I guess is why several of us ended up dying of tuberculosis.

. It takes fewer muscles to smile than to frown...and fewer still to ignore someone completely.

. Eagles may soar, but weasels don't get sucked up into jet engines.

. If at first you don't succeed, don't admit you ever tried.
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Whats the world coming to these days?