A prayer

Dear God,

I have sinned against you one too many times,
yet you still keep me alive
and keep me safe.
Please help me to understand how you love
because I do not understand.

Please forgive my sins Lord,
and help me to run when temptation lurks
Please hold my hand everyday and give me strength
just so I will not stumble.

For I know I have no self-control
and am weak.
Please have mercy on me
and teach me, your face, to seek.

Please help my from my stress,
and help me to feel at peace.
I am very stressed and angry, Lord
my stress is like a beast.

It is eating me up and builds fury
and it brings me close to sin.
so please dear God, free me!
So that I won't die within.

Help me to see and feel that you are there,
that you will always be,
and to know that you will not abandon me
to leave me and not care.

And help me to count the many blessings you give me
so that with each that I count my faith will grow.
And that I will learn to be thankful,
all the way.

Keep me on the right path,
help me not to stray,
for as a human I will err
so please lead the way.

I know that I'm stubborn
and will often forget.
But yet even when I am far away,
You do not forget.

Please help me not to lie
and to mean what i say
So that I will not be a hypocrite
For from this you'll turn away.

Lord, a great battle is coming up
and I have not prepared
Please give me the strength to listen to you
and help me to start preparing.

Amen

Of Guinea Pigs and Unfulfilled Wishes

Hush hush breakdown!

Swish swing shazzle bish bang boom.

Not in a particularly good mood for now even though today was rather enjoyable. Im procrastinating. NOOOOO. Im like pushing back all my work and studying even though I SPECIFICALLY told myself not to. Oh well. Self-control is not on my side today, nor will it ever be if I don't try.

Had Amaths lesson in the morning today. Apparently My Choy cut his hair even shorter, saying its more cooling and he can save shampoo and whatnot. Since I was feeling kinda rich, I paid Yap 2 bucks and dared her to say to him "Your hair looks good". (but the terms were only settled after much bargaining through the medium of passing notes in class) And yes she accepted it and went ahead with the task, thanking me for making her 2 bucks richer. hah. And after all the jokes were over, My Choy dumped us with more homework. RAR

Went to AMK Hub after changing my outfit (i wouldnt want to go out in school U.what if a teacher stalks me and catches me doing something st00p1d?). I arrived there like about 30 mins early and had to stone for a looong time with Jasper coz I had to wait for the others to come. We ate a very very quick lunch (we da-baoed macs) and then watched G-Force. (yknow the movie with the talking guinea pigs? Not too bad a movie, quite cute and funny) Unfortunately Jasper had to leave even before the movie started and then Sue Anne left after the movie, leaving me Amanda.C, Irvin and Wilson to wander around some more before I left for home.

Been surfing net ever since i reached home though I had originally planned to do some work. RAWR curse you lack of self control person! (which would be me)

Just

Just looking and waiting for a chance

just so you can notice me.

Just what is it that I am lacking?

That makes me transparent to you?

I tried to change my image.

No effect.

I spoke more.

I became loud mouthed.

I then spoke less (how ironic)

Even worse.

I appeared in front of you more,

but-

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Nuts to be you technology! (bashes computer)

REBOOTING....

I appeared in front of you more,

but I feel so dumb doing so.

Try to help, but get declined

I go to my other friends

but I still end up going near you.

Perhaps my little wish

will never become reality

But then again if I try hard

maybe I can strike a shot

wHOs Up fOr A gaMe of p00l PeEpz! (lol)

Nonetheless, my options I'll weigh

To go or to stay.

When I find the answer from my scales

Hopefully you're not in other vales.