Stressed!

Urgh recently people have been telling me that I look stressed. And telling me that I should take it easy. I know they mean well, but how can I be stressed if:

I am eating a lot more than usual during meals

I am also losing my appetite at times

I can't seem to relax properly

I get very irritated at the slightest remark (good or bad)

I seem to always want to talk to someone or go out (given the fact that i usually hate doing this)

I am bent on wanting to disappear from existence

I always look tired

I have dark circles under my eyes

I may crack any moment

I start shouting at the most random of times

I am constantly complaining

I want to beat up any living thing that happens to irritate me at the moment

Given all these symptoms, how can I be stressed??? Seriously? *shrugs*

I'm all washed up

Sigh, my holidays were not a holiday at all. As usual, I had a ton of work to do. Had to go back to school as well for a computer course (see i told you so!) We learned to use this cool new software called Microsoft Expression. Its so new that not many heard of it. And we had to do C# programming as well...killed my head but its similar to actionscript so after awhile I got used to it. sigh i'm completely exhausted.
Managed to climb over the railings to the roof at church and spent some time emo-ing there. Really nice spot but it kinda attracts attention so I'll only go if there's really little people around. The last time i did that at camp my friends thought i was committing suicide. =.= (well not that i don't wanna die early but i wouldn't throw myself down 2 storeys and expect to die right?) And again I got teased by my friends, they all think I have a boyfriend! DUDES, PEOPLE. BEAR THIS IN MIND. I CAN'T EVEN TALK TO OTHERS PROPERLY DON'T EXPECT ME TO BE SO LUCKY! sheesh.

Evangelism week!

Hey all! This here's an open invitation!

My church (True Jesus Church) will be having an evangelism week. Here are the times and topics for the week:

Wed 3rd Sep 08 (7.30 pm)
Did Jesus really rise from the dead?
(Non-christians)

Fri 5th Sep 08 (7.30 pm)
Why so many churches?
(Christians+Non-christians)

Both are dual language (English & chinese), and the services are at 17 D Adam Road.

For my friends out there, I am sorry to announce that I cannot come for the friday one as I have tuition (yes its very annoying) at night. Anyway, those interested in coming are free to come. And if im there on that day, I shall treat you to food! Haha, jkjk. But seriously, don't get your hopes up. Its not like I'll have money to treat people for meals.

Oh the irony...

Ah shoot. The holidays are coming. Now all of you must be thinking: Rachel! Are you nuts? Are you insane? Have you gone crazy? Its the holidays for crying out loud! You're supposed to be out with your friends or causing mayhem in the house or just have some plain fun, not pouting as if its the end of the world! Well too bad. I have a ton of homework(that shall soon come actually), exams (yes, exams. hard to believe that those pieces of paper actually have enough power in them to cause depression, stress and worse, suicidal thoughts and attempts!) and last of all, an intensive computer workshop course (which i fear my friends, may come my way and ultimately kill me if it does). Though half of the stuff and situations mentioned above may or may not happen to me, I must prepare for the worst,for i saw the "signs" leading to these events.

One: the workshop. All selected sec 1 and 2 com club members are to go unless theres a valid reason.
Signs: All sec 1s can't come, i have no reason to not come, half of the sec 2 population in com club come from my class.
Two: the homework. Well standard rule: Do or die.
Signs: WELL ITS HOLIDAY OF COURSE THERE'LL BE WORK. AND C'MON, MY EXAMS ARE COMING. *raises hands in exasperation*
Three: the Final Year Exam (a.k.a streaming/screaming exam). My future and future exams lie in the hands of me and those merciless pieces of pulp that is processed to become what we know as paper.
Signs: Self explanatory. (If you can't see the logic behind this sign, consult your doctor)

So you see? Im gonna die this holiday (as much as i look forward to it) and the only luxury i'll have is the luxury of being able to sleep late, rise late and do whatever I want with my time in between.

But hey, evangelistic service is starting too. I pray that I can find the time to come and also to continue my daily prayer sessions regularly. Praise the Lord for giving me today, and my A2 for english! =D heehee.

(Psalms 23:4)- Yea, though I walk through the valley and shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

Oh no

Graah. Can't go to school today.
Why, you ask?
Because I had to be stupid and not eat.
Yes. Ever had the feeling that you didn't feel like cosuming anything, and just wasting your stomach away on that particular day, depriving it of its function? Yup that feeling came to me yesterday during recess and two days ago for dinner. And now, im having gastric pain and im extremely tired. Oh well. i really shouldn't do this to myself.

Intermission

And yet again, i have received my glorious science paper from the hands of Ms Ho, my physics teacher. And POOF! 35/40! its 87.5 marks man! and that brings my tally of A1's up to 3. (the others are DnT and maths) and my average for maths and science is.......82.5%! hehe.Very happy. But this is no time to slack! i have 2 more papers to collect, and i have a feeling they're not gonna be good... also my first FYE (aka my streaming exam) paper is on 19 sep. THE BATTLE AIN'T OVER! THIS IS BUT A SMALL INTERMISSION TO THE REAL FIGHT! ONWARD GO!!!!! Thank God for giving me these beautiful results, gonna share this news with everyone. But as i said in the caps lock, it is not over yet. I must still study hard and get (hopefully) better results so as to fufill my dream of going into a double science class. I will not take the triple science option, even with a choice to. I mean, why give yourselfthe stress of having to balance ALL THREE sciences? Yes I like science, but not that much (seriously!) I'll probably go for physics and chem... ahh whatever. I'll just study hard,try my best and see what I get. The best option when you are unsure is to wait and see, and keep your options open. 我不可半途而废，要向前行。所谓：百尺竿头，更进一步。lol. Can't wait to go to church again.

My future (this is just a random title)

Yay. Finally got my first paper back. Man, can't believe that even with a nosebleed, i managed to ace that test! 81 2/3 out of a 100 man! WOOT. (ok fine i used a calculator) hmmm... my prayer life has been slipping alot for the past few years, and strictly speaking, i'm worried. I find that my dependency on my friends is not good for me. I hope i can grow up soon, be independant and hopefully get a good job (note: good job DOES NOT=high paying job) and take care of my parents and family. also i will be able to lead my own life, no longer bound to the confines of my house, free to roam the streets to unearthly hours (dun worry mum, i wont go too far) and probably find a companion to share life with. But then again i still prefer to stay under my parents wings, away from tax, ERP, GST, PUB bills, stressful work life etc. hehe. Had a good chat with Yun Feng yesterday. May God bless us all. I will continue to watch and pray, 因主会来接我回家.